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Setan sih seneng umat manusia jadi kesetnya dia. Dia manfaatin aja tuh VR.

Lah gue? Manfaatin VR yg ada gue ditendang ke neraka.

Nyimpen hatred, ke neraka.

Kepeleset, ke neraka.

Lah terus gue mesti gimana?

Dengerin omongan orang yg ngerusak gue?

Dih gue mah udah ga takut diganti posisi gue ama orang lain.

Dari dulu orang-orang itu selalu gantiin gue.

Selalu ngecap gue ga worthy.

Ya mereka juga gampang diganti sih.

Soalnya sama aja kan ya wkwkwk

Terus mereka ketakutan AI

Menurut gue mah harusnya mereka takut ama diri sendiri

Orang diri mereka sendiri yg bikin mereka susah

Ntar tiba-tiba ada yg bilang ga dibayar lagi?

Mohon maaf itu kalau niat bayar, langsung datengin aja kasih duit.

Ini ga niat?

Atau maksudnya dibayar pake apa?

Gue kan jadi nebak-nebak?

Dibayar pake preeching? Siapa yg preech? Apa dibayar sperma? Sperma siapa?

Mohon maaf ga minta maaf, ga usah dibayar pake preech atau sperma.

Anggap aja kalau manfaat, biar dibayar sama pahala. Kalau ga manfaat, bukan tanggung jawab gue.

VR ini mencurigakan. Suka curiga jangan-jangan terdiri dari hubungan sex yg bukan suami istri sah secara agama beneran. Jangan-jangan agama VR nih sesat.

Pantes dibilangin gue ga nikah dll.

Mohon maaf ga minta maaf, apa gunanya nikah di VR?

Gapapa deh gue gatau. Ini mungkin adalah proteksi buat gue.

Ntar gue jadi bukan penganut Islam lagi. Jadinya penganut agama VR. Pantesan banyak yg ngaku Islam, tapi kehidupan dunia ga tambah baik. Cuma formalitas aja ternyata.

Agama VR sekalinya seseorang memikirkan kebaikan untuk umay manusia jadinya kecil ga keliatan bla bla bla, ya pantes aja makin terpuruk.

Ya ampun. Orang yg mencela gue adalah orang yg gue harus tolong?

Emang setan tuh ya ada miripnya sama gue. Sama-sama proud, ga bisa sama yg pikiran dangkal.

Bedanya gue masih cari cara biar ga ditendang ke neraka. Duh semoga cacian manusia-manusia ini jadi sumber pahala buat gue.

Huhu

Tapi mesti strong 💪

Mesti tough kaya tembok pertahanan di perbatasan

Aduh ga bisa lembek kaya gini sih. Dapat rejection dikit aja langsung pundungan

Bisnis tuh ga ada ampun. Kalau modalnya mental kaya gini ya mana bisa

Lagian liat aja, mana ada pebisnis yg comply 100% sama sesuatu. Yg mereka lakukan semua cari celahhh

Fokus bisnis aja laahh

Apaan pundung pundung ga jelas

Ga usah so authentic segala

Semua orang juga fake

Semua orang juga ada sesuatu yg ga mereka bilang ke gue yg ditutupi dari gue

People are not so innocent

Masa membiarkan orang orang yg banyak kesalahan ngatur ngatur state of mind gue sih

Kesel

What comes first

The way people don’t accept me fully

Or

The way I don’t accept anybody fully

Never been at home in according to their standard. But I’m not sorry for that.

Home?

Sorry, what is home?

If they just validate my words that are relevant to them, and insult my other side, might as well I’ll just shut myself.

I will always be a liar to myself.

Even in the ghost post I try post what comes into my mind, and my mba say this and that so noisy. Say things about little, toxic and things.

In this world people expect to me to comply with their standard.

So I’ll be always a liar to myself.

If I true to myself, I’ll be always in exile.

So what if I’m small?

So what if I’m far?

Just because my thought doesn’t comply with virtual reality?

I start to wonder how they are in virtual reality?

Were they undergoing the process I’ve through?

Wait until I know and I’ll judge.

People love upper position in Assymetric information because they get benefit from the disparity.

I’ve witness greed from my surrounding.

Considering I’m so stupid to not know virtual reality.

I wonder how did they know?

People keep me in the dark because they don’t know what I will do.

I wonder if I know what I will do.

1. I wasn’t out of my mind. I heard clearly that he was mentioning my VR. So I am starstrucked. So I reply because why not? It’s normal replying, right?
2. Sometimes I feel sorry that at the past I can’t express what I feel. I just want to try once. So I did.
3. But I am not so sorry right now, because the reply would and will be isolate to my nearest circle.
4. I respect my brother very much especially for taking care my parents. He gave them car if I’m not mistaken. My parents are proud of him. In contrary, they are not really proud of me anymore I guess. I’m not feeling good about this. Of course I have to feel sufficient about myself, but it’s still make me uncomfortable. But at least there is my brother that they can talk about with their relatives.
5. But I’m not incest. I don’t have any romantic feeling towards my brother. I’m emotionally healhty. I don’t have that type of sickness inside my mind.
6. So when her wife write those something, what should I respond? We’re not fighting each other to get my brother’s attention.
7. Oh I forget. I displease my brother back when I was younger. Because he just jajanin me once or twice. Murah juga. So pelit. Blehh
8. Or his wife reply was the proxy of POI’s wife’s reply? Because I was talking about his university so they reply with the same method that is similarity of university. Chill, it’s just reply. It’s not like I try to PDKT or try to seduce or anything. So only can him mentioning my VR, but I can’t mentioning his VR? It’s just replying. With a bit of confession, but nothing much.
9. So next time I won’t do it. To be honest, the reply confuse me and turn me off. I think it’s good. I hate having feeling of crush etc. The roller coaster doesn’t make me comfortable.
10. I will just pray that my unexpressed feeling will not dig a void inside my heart. Especially now that I find out my business is so fragile. What can make my heart full again?
11. But if somebody want to mention my VR again, it’s fine. I won’t bother it.
12. I will post my social media again sometimes.
13. Love with desires or longing is not for me.
14. Actually, my life is sufficient.
15. I don’t understand why I can still have interest in somebody else that I don’t know.
16. Well, I will continue my journey in loneliness. Not so lonely, because my husband and daughter are still around.
17. I will see things that I can’t afford. Like lifestyle I can’t afford but I still watch it. Like luxurious things I can’t afford but I still search them in social media. Like person I adore but I can’t have yet I still watch him.
18. Just for fun, may be.
19. But everytime, there is a feeling, I will remember about the respond for my nearest circle and realize that VR is absurd. My feeling is chopped off again everytime it grows.
20. But this is may be what’s best for me although I don’t like it.

Tapi menurut gue mah sabar aja sih.

Orang diciptakan dengan pikiran yg beda-beda.

Tapi yg horror itu adalah ketika di laporan pertanggungjawaban pas death nanti.

Ntar ditanya kali, “itu otak bisa mikir gitu, terus lu pake buat nindas orang lain”?

Jawab, “Abis mereka entog, malah mikir saya yg konslet? mending tindas aja sekalian, kan mereka selalu mikir mereka udah dalam situasi terbaik. ga ada bedanya buat mereka.”

Tanya lagi, “emang ga dikasih otak biar tau adanya perbedaan cara pikir? Emang ga bisa nyari sudut pandang biar sabar? gampang banget tisoledad ke dalam nafsu balas dendam. Tisoledad sana waktu jalan di tight rope”

Jawab, “give me mercy”

Nahhh gimana tuh kalau begitu, kan I yg ketempuhan.

Duh, kira lu semua gampang hidup kaya gue. Dihh berapa banyak yg mesti gue tahan.

Sekian dan tidak terima kasih

Atau mungkin mereka pikir itu hal yg bagus.

Aneh sih.

Kirain lu kalau jadi pejabat gitu, lu mesti ngasih contoh yg baik, kerja yg bener serving people you lead. Shouldering heavy responsibilities that needs focus. Eliminating unnecessary complexities.

Mungkin mereka pikir mirip manusia lobster kali ya. Once lu jadi orang penting, cewe2 bakal ngerebutin lu di tempat terbaik lu. Terus lu dibikin kesenengan, kegeeran, kerepotan ngurusin cewe2 yg masuk di kehidupan personal lu.

Pantes sih negara gue kaya begini. emang sistem nya menurut gue ga giving opportunities buat growing stronger, bigger, bolder. Ambisi lu sebatas selangkangan aja.

Tau deh di pikiran lu sebenernya mikirin apa aja?

Atau having sex di VR itu not necessary having sex physically? agak aneh tapi kalau konsepnya begitu. berhubung VR orang2 ini simplest form, jadi kayanya ga ada capacity buat mikirin suatu climax yg enhancing and improving lives.