- I wasn’t out of my mind. I heard clearly that he was mentioning my VR. So I am starstrucked. So I reply because why not? It’s normal replying, right?
- Sometimes I feel sorry that at the past I can’t express what I feel. I just want to try once. So I did.
- But I am not so sorry right now, because the reply would and will be isolate to my nearest circle.
- I respect my brother very much especially for taking care my parents. He gave them car if I’m not mistaken. My parents are proud of him. In contrary, they are not really proud of me anymore I guess. I’m not feeling good about this. Of course I have to feel sufficient about myself, but it’s still make me uncomfortable. But at least there is my brother that they can talk about with their relatives.
- But I’m not incest. I don’t have any romantic feeling towards my brother. I’m emotionally healhty. I don’t have that type of sickness inside my mind.
- So when her wife write those something, what should I respond? We’re not fighting each other to get my brother’s attention.
- Oh I forget. I displease my brother back when I was younger. Because he just jajanin me once or twice. Murah juga. So pelit. Blehh
- Or his wife reply was the proxy of POI’s wife’s reply? Because I was talking about his university so they reply with the same method that is similarity of university. Chill, it’s just reply. It’s not like I try to PDKT or try to seduce or anything. So only can him mentioning my VR, but I can’t mentioning his VR? It’s just replying. With a bit of confession, but nothing much.
- So next time I won’t do it. To be honest, the reply confuse me and turn me off. I think it’s good. I hate having feeling of crush etc. The roller coaster doesn’t make me comfortable.
- I will just pray that my unexpressed feeling will not dig a void inside my heart. Especially now that I find out my business is so fragile. What can make my heart full again?
- But if somebody want to mention my VR again, it’s fine. I won’t bother it.
- I will post my social media again sometimes.
- Love with desires or longing is not for me.
- Actually, my life is sufficient.
- I don’t understand why I can still have interest in somebody else that I don’t know.
- Well, I will continue my journey in loneliness. Not so lonely, because my husband and daughter are still around.
- I will see things that I can’t afford. Like lifestyle I can’t afford but I still watch it. Like luxurious things I can’t afford but I still search them in social media. Like person I adore but I can’t have yet I still watch him.
- Just for fun, may be.
- But everytime, there is a feeling, I will remember about the respond for my nearest circle and realize that VR is absurd. My feeling is chopped off again everytime it grows.
- But this is may be what’s best for me although I don’t like it.
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